i have been feeling so much better. almost "high," although i think this is just what it feels like to not be depressed, to be happy.

i got my car, which i love. my job is improving and its time to look for a new one. 27 is destined to be a good year; i feel reminded that God has blessed me and has a plan for me.

however, i admit that when i was feeling so good, kammy had a way of bringing me back down. i sweetly and enthusiastically shared my life, and he cut me off. its so clear there is not interest, and a part of me completely accepts that and looks forward to someone EVEN better. but it still hurts

i was looking forward to seeing deters today to discuss this. of course he cancelled. i am beginning to wonder if there is any point in going. every time i plan on sharing something, look forward to guidance, he isn't around. by the time i see him, i've figured it out myself anyway.